During my primary education I used to hate people who smoke which also includes my parent where by they never were able to live happily without a pop of Beri, or Bandhar Surtii (A tobacco brand). They would always have a choice of brands. Didn't even think that one day I would be proving worse than they.
Marijuana was my first of type and my drug of choice. It started as just trying them out of curiosity to I cannot have a good time without them. Later I got myself upgraded to NO2 which is a inhalant and then how can I forget "DENDRITE" another inhalant. Or rather I would drink alcohol and then inhale to mix the effects of them to obtain a higher euphoric or normally termed as "getting High" or "Kick". At first it needed only some pops of marijuana to get me kicked or say three to four pops to get kicked by dendrite but gradually the kick time increases day by day. I used to have small blackouts and stop breathing for more than a few seconds. My family and friends have no idea of what I am up to or what really I am doing behind the curtains of my happy face and trying to be normal person as if nothing has happened. When sober, I feel anxious, the need to be alone and I avoid social interaction or public gathering as much as possible and that has still affected me. I don't even remember how I reach or attain classes and my looks betray. I used to feel so guilty, empty, powerless, pissed, and temptation of doing such to get high would help me. It would have been my own thought since then that drugging helps me feel happy and powerful not knowing that it's the brain being affected. Sometimes I would be trying Asprin or peracetamol before smoking marijuana to get myself high. Everyone did knew and do know that drugging is bad and cause lives but this has already overrun my life. Everyone is same. If something good happens we would be happy and love ourselves. If something bad happen it's only to be blamed GOD. Even my dreams were filled scoring dendrite and marijuana. If someone tries to stop me from my binging I used to become angry and convinced that they are jealous because they are not doing what I am doing. I don't know how many, but I did dragged lots of friend to drugging and some became more addicted than me. In studies I never failed but surely I did lost my ranks.
Within ourselves a ego would be developed. Thoughts come over that drugging is bad. Want to stop but the addiction never lets to. When I say addiction I wasn't one of those people who always ask for another cigarette every 5 minutes, I was one of those who had 2 or 3 a day or less.
Why drugs? When we have yet a long life to live and make a living worthwhile. After 5 years I could eventually stop drugging but stopping suddenly can even cause death. When our body gets adapted to a drugging environment, and changing the system cause madness and such a mess . I want to share some points what really it happens while drugging:-
Drugs usually attack the communication system of our brain. Drugs are chemicals. They disturb send, receive, and process information that a brain carry. Different drugs work differently.( A pain killer will stop or ease your pain because it starts blocking the passage of pain message sent through the nerves to the brain.) In fact, some drugs can change the brain in ways that last long after the person has stopped taking drugs, maybe even permanently. This is more likely when a drug is taken repeatedly.
Some drugs, such as marijuana and heroin, activate neurons because their chemical structure mimics that of a natural neurotransmitter. They actually change the way brain works. Wong information would be collected and sent to brain.
All drugs of abuse—nicotine, cocaine, marijuana, and others—affect the brain's "reward" circuit, which is part of the brain system. Normally, the reward circuit responds to pleasurable experiences, which creates feelings of pleasure, and tells the brain that this is something important—pay attention and remember it. Drugs hijack this system, This flood of dopamine is what causes the "high" or euphoria associated with drug abuse. ( I read those in one of the books… name forgot). Through my experience, A marijuana user may experience pleasant sensations, colors and sounds may seem more intense, and time appears to pass very slowly. The user's mouth feels dry, and he or she may suddenly become very hungry and thirsty. His or her hands may tremble and grow cold. The euphoria passes after awhile, and then the user may feel sleepy or depressed. Occasionally, marijuana use produces anxiety, fear, distrust, or panic." Within a few minutes after inhaling marijuana smoke, an individual's heart begins beating more rapidly, and blood vessels in the eyes expand, making the eyes look red. This effect can be greater if other drugs are taken with marijuana.
SAY NO TO DRUGS and never ever try even once.
